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I MADE HER BECAUSE I LOVE HER

I made her... she is different. She is unique. With LOVE I formed her in her mother's womb. With LOVE I fashioned her with great joy. I remember with great pleasure the day I created her. (Ps. 139: 13-16)

I LOVE her smile. I LOVE her ways. I LOVE to hear her laugh. And the silly things she says and does. She brings Me great pleasure... this is how I made her. (Ps. 139:17)

I made her pretty, but not beautiful, because I know her heart, and she would be vain. I wanted her to search out her heart and to learn that it would be Me in her that would make her beautiful... and it would be Me in her that would draw friends to her. (1 Peter 3:3-5)

I made her in such a way that she would need Me. I made her a little more lonesome than she would like to be... only because I need her to lean and depend on Me. I know her heart, I know if I had not made her like this, she would go her own chosen way and forget Me... her creator. (ps. 62: 5-8)

I have given her many good and happy things.... because I love her. (ps. 34:11 and Rom 8:32)

Because I love her I have seen her broken, hurt... and the tears she has cried alone. I have cried them with her, and had a broken heart, too. (ps. 58:6)

Many times she has stumbled and fallen alone only because she would not hold My hand. So many lessons she has learned the hard way because she would not listen to my voice. (Isa. 66:2)

So many times I have sat back and sadly watched her go her merry way alone only to watch her return to My arms, sad and broken. (Isa. 66:2)

And now she is mine again...I made her and then bought her... because I LOVE her. (Rom 5:8)

I have to reshape and remold her... to renew to what I had planned for her to be. It has not been easy for her or Me. (Jer 29:11)

I want her to be conformed to My image... this goal I have set for her... because I LOVE HER! ( 2 Cor 2:14)

(not sure where this is from... but I really like it so I thought I'd share it!)

Fragmented Journal Entry....

I have absolutely nothing to offer and I am nothing without Christ.

I am a selfish person, scared to look beyond me; scared what God might ask me to do for others...

I don't read my bible enough because I'm scared of failure... I don't think I can do it well... yet in not trying, I'm failing anyway....

I want to be broken and to live solely for Christ, but I'm scared He might ask too much of me.. more than I can give...

I long to be genuine... but I'm scared what others might think of me....

I long to surrender fully to God, but I'm afraid of losing control....

I desire the TRUE joy that is only to be had in making Jesus the center of my life! ....but I'm afraid of losing the happiness I already have...

I want to let God change me into the person He wants me to be, but I'm scared of losing who I am now....

Wow. I am full of ridiculous fears. Where is my faith?

Isaiah 41:10 - So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous hand...

One Would Think....

Here is a little ode to my name change. I just changed it cause I got bored with the old one... and this one amuses me! By the way, in case of future confusion, the "one" who's thoughts are posted on this blog in the future is me(Janet).... haha! Just in case you got it in your hear that it actually meant the generic "one" :P

• One would think that if we(girls) think paint(nail polish) is attractive on our nails, we wouldn't think it messy and unattractive when on our clothes or slopped on our hands and arms.


• One would think that if pineapple and oranges and honeydew melon are gross in a chef salad, so are apples. (directed at my mom and Amy!:P)


• One would think that if we enjoy a lemon or an orange on our glass of water, we might like other fruits there... like pomegranates... or maybe a chunk of steak?


• One would think that, since clearly we Canadians need more exercise, we would put more stairs in our airports instead of having our stairs and pathways move for us.


• One would think...ok, I don't feel like thinking of more... I'm done for now....

"We" - Joy Williams

She's independent and beautiful
Wish I could be like her
She's got the girls and the boys
So wrapped around her finger
Rumor is, she's some kind of dream
Nobody knows she cries herself to sleep

We are not that different from each other
We just want somebody to discover
Who we really are when we drop our guard
That love has gotta start with you and me
We

He's on the top of the social scene
He's stylish, cool and clever
He's gotta cool attitude that screams
He's got it all together
You'd think he's addicted to himself
But he wishes he could be someone else

We are not that different from each other
We just want somebody to discover
Who we really are when we drop our guard
That love has gotta start with you and me
We

Gotta come together
You know you never ever have to be alone
You gotta hand to hold

We are not that different from each other
We just want somebody to discover
Who we really are when we drop our guard
That love has gotta start with you and me
We

Blogging out of boredom

So... just waiting to take off to visit family... which was supposed to happen about 45 minutes ago... so now I have nothing to do and apparently eveyone sleeps the morning away these days... haha Ok, maybe not... maybe they just don't hang out on msn waiting to see if I need to be entertained while I wait for my family.

Anyway, here's a cute picture of bored kids. I especially like the little guy with his yawn and double chin. Is anyone still reading this? haha! It's funny how I just might possibly think people CARE if I'm bored! I think I'm important enough that everyone will read my "bored" blog... haha! Ok, I'm done now... Have a good week!

Boxing Day Sales....

I don't even know where boxing day comes from or what it means... but whoever turned it into a day where everything is much cheaper, was really smart! What other day would absolutely everyone in North Bay head to the malls simultaneously, as soon as they opened?! Ok... maybe not everyone... but a good chunk of the population! I mean, I had plans to go. As a student, how could I not go shopping on the one day that you can get things for so cheap?!

However, my plans changed. I just happened to be reading the chapter on money in "Blue Like Jazz", which totally ruined my intentions of hitting the sales! I might regret this later, when I buy things full price. But, how could I really justify buying things I don't need? I always wish that I had more money so I wouldn't have to thinkk twice about having enough for school. But when reading the book last night, I realized that if I had more money, I'd then still want more money. I pictured myself with a grea deal of cash and wondered what I'd do with it... if I thought about it honestly. To be completely honest, I'd probably start with myself... pay off my student loan, buy a new wardrobe... I don't know exactly... but I'm starting to think that maybe God has given me a gift by leaving me with only just enough. I have be spared some difficult decisions as a Christian. I haven't become materialistic because there hasn't been the opportunity! I have grown up without being spoiled and really appreciating smaller things in life. God has also given me the opportunity to develop faith! Instead of worrying about money coming in, I can choose to totally put it in God's hands and have the certainty that He will always come through for me! There has never been a time when I didn't have something I needed.

So yeah... I'm glad I read that chapter when I did.... even though I was a little annoyed with Donald Miller for awhile....

Today's the Day!

That we celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ! You know, it's hard to remember what this is all about. It seems that even as we try to focus on Christ, it still seems like the world has taken over and taught us that this is all about presents and junk! But really... yeah... anyway, I don't feel like saying much right now,... you all know what Christmas is supposed to be about. It has something to do with keeping the capital C on the holiday! well, I made that up kinda... well, it's from a song.. but I think I messed it up.. ok I'm done. haha!

MERRY CHRISTMAS, EVERYONE!!!

Home!

Home at last! And loving it! Even though it's been so long, I can't find my way around the kitchen and I have no idea how to use the microwave here! I mean, one would think it's pretty explanitory. You press the button of the thing you're putting in sometimes. But who needs their food so hot that it takes 2 minutes and 40 seconds?! And how do you know what power level to put it on if there's no button labelled with the name of the food you're putting in? Like... um... hotdog... how much does a hot dog need? Why is there not a hot dog button?? haha!
Anyway, I'm happy to be home. Hopefully I'll keep up with this... I hardly know what to do with myself! So much time! So much to do! Ah!!

So if I'm not talking to some of you in the next few days....Merry Christmas!

True Story

Whatever version you may hear of the following, know that what I am about to reveal is complete and utter truth, lacking no details, straight from my heart. Even this innocent face did nothing to sway them. My encouragement only seemed to incite their wrath all the more. It was a sad, sad night.

It was a slightly breezy evening in Caronport, Saskatchewan... Janet(that's me) was feeling rather cooped up and wanted to get out. However, being a woman of good upbringing, she would never bring herself to actually ask Dave Siverns to the point, as he was who she was currently corresponding with on msn. But Dave kept hinting... saying he wanted to go to the point, yet didn't know what to do there and didn't have any buddies around at that time. So Janet kindly gave him the option of learning the wonderful game we like to call "slaps". Of course she invited Benny along as well, as he mentioned not having alot to do and, he didn't say this but, he was going to miss Janet since she was so soon going home to Ontario. The slaps game began... as did the torment of Janet.

The tormentors came as a bit of a surprise. Dave says he struggles with sarcasm... feels it's too "mean" and Benny... well, can you see Benny hurting anyone? His name is Benny! Yes, I was shocked as well. The games began normally. I won twice, yet they still wanted to continue playing so I accomodated them. Who am I to stop them from learning from a pro? That is when the cheating began. Using "power in numbers" and brute strength, they began to continue in their own form of the game, not heeding my pleas to "be fair" or "stop cheating". They were devious, using scripture out of context(yeah! I was abhorred as well!) just to beat me! I did my best, trying to work around their cheating and cruelty. As they brought me down in order to build themselves up! How they could take such advantage of an innocent slap player was beyond me.

I even found it difficult to be angry since I'm such a laid back person. Despite their threats and complaints and painful slapping that was harder than necessary. I was able to do little beyond smile as cards were stolen from me and thrown in my face time and time again. As my second last night in this place before going home for Christmas, it was rather trying... Benny and David, I will keep you in my prayers over the holidays. Perhaps one day we can play again.....

P.S.-

You all better keep blogging over the holidays!! Oh... and, by the way, do you have any idea how easy it is to do dishes now that you're gone and Ann eats at Darrens?? haha!!! jk

Not full quad, half quad...

Alas, it has finally happened... the first parting of quad. This is a sad experience, considering the three and a half months of joy. However, it's also of mixed feelings the four of us part, as we have been waiting in expectation to be reunited with our sorely missed families.

Jacquie- This bundle of joy departed from us early satruday morning. I believe she woke me up at 5:45am before heading out into the windy death-trap that is usually called winter in Saskatchewan. She called at 7:45am from the ditch, jovially explaining that a tow truack was called and she was still heading on her way to Winnepeg. She finally arrived in Winnepeg 11 hours after her original departure, tired, but excited to be almost home. We will miss her dearly! There is already a hole where she used to be and we keep thinking we hear her in the hall!

Chantal - She left Ann and I on our lonesome at 4:45am. She also very excited to go home, yet her face looking somewhat similar to this picture in which she burned down our gingerbread house. I have no story about her trip, as she has not yet contacted the remainder of the quad. We can only hope that she made it safely to her destination of Moncton, NB.

Personal Note: Chantal! Are you ok?? Let us know! We've been anxious all day! Oh... and Benny told me you cheated at Cranium! I've asked Gwen to give you hours. She said you have to bake the whole floor cheesecakes.. haha We miss you!!

Um... yes... that's me. A portrait of beauty, I know. haha! Anyway, I am the lonely one sitting the the quad missing the others. I've got another couple of days before my plane heads out from Regina to return to North Bay, ON. Bah! I can't wait! I want to go home!! And at 6:40am on Tuesday December 19, I shall do just that.

Christmas... this wonderful holiday that shall consist of FAMILY, friends, food, smallville, sledding, and... um... a necessary haircut? No, Jacquie, I can't see beyond my bangs! And yes, Chantal andLeith, I have two eyes! haha!

Ann- last but not least, we have Ann who leaves later on Tuesday after being a dear and driving me to the airport so early! Thanks! She is, I believe, excited to go home to Abbotsford, BC, which is hopefully warmer than here! She also gets the luxury of travelling with her boyfriend Darren and having such a short flight! Lucky Bum.... I guess that's to make up for being the last one in the quad... which gets quite boring without the four of us together! By the way, Ann, your picture is small cause it wouldn't let me put in the big one! No offence!! It is my pleasure to spend the remaining days here with you! Although, you're not even here... you're at Darren's.... haha Oh well...

So, there you have it. Down to half quad... and soon down to no quad. A sad, but necessary time in which we will enjoy our families and come back ready to start a new semester!! I will miss all three of you!! Keep in touch!!

Tragic Fire Destroys Home

Janet Nicholson

Local News- Thursday, December 14, 2006 - Updated @ 1:56PM

Armed with oven mits, Chantal Gibson rushed to try to stop this disaster from happening. It all began at 3:03PM as Gibson was working nearby at her computer. She had put a piece of the gingerbread house in the microwave to soften it for more functional consumption. Apparently the gingerbread was forgotten until the smoke began rising from the electronical device. When asked what happened, Gibson answered, "I dunno... I just jumped to my feet, ran to the microwave and it was smoking!"

The damages were devastating and the remainder of the house had to be knocked down and carted away, as only the front wall remained standing. Thankfully Gibson sustained no injuries and needed no medical attention. However, the gingerbread owners of the house were not to be found.

He Came Upon a Midnight Cold(-40!)....

... took over our lives, bought me chicken, made fun of me, then had the audacity(yes, I just used that word) to demand a blog in his honour! :) Which I will do gladly...

So, back to the beginning... our friendship (of sorts) began through his wonderful sister. She brought out the family picture(to prove her heritage) and we saw two... um.... how do you say it on msn?..... nice-looking brothers. Of course we(Jax and I) did the extremely girly thing and each picked which one we were going to marry. I hesitate to admit this... but yeah, we definitely flirted with these two boys through his sister... I mean, really, we never expected to meet them. Then Leith decided to visit. Talk about awkward! Haha! But he's great so I quickly got over my awkwardness... and now we're getting married!!! ....... haha! Just kidding! (That was just a little comment to freak out my mother if she reads this).

Ok, yes he DID beat me in slaps!

But we're still friends!

That is... until he started making fun of me again!

But overall, we had some awesome times!

So, there you have it, Leith! A whole bog about yourself! Are you happy now?! haha! We miss you! And we think you should come here next year! :)

How to Alleviate Exam Stress Janet Style:

During this busy time headng into the exam period, I think there are things we can all do to keep the stress levels to a minimum. Here is a list in no apparent order:

1. Eat as much chocolate as possible.

2. Clean your quad/room. This makes studying easier and gives you no excuse not to.

3. Be sure to sing at the top of your lungs at every opportunity.

4. Laugh, laugh, LAUGH!!

5. Laugh more!!!

6. Take wierd pictures of yourself and post them on your blog.

7. Visit the computer guy at school and ask if you can spend 5 minutes watching people on the security camera.

8. Go find a security camera and wave to the computer guy.

9. Walk by every practice room at Briercrest and make faces in the windows.

10. Spend an hour talking to your quadmates about your first impressions of each other.

11. Take up knitting.

12. Avoid asking someone you've never met to the Christmas party.

13. Convince someone you're stalking them... then tell them you're joking(but are you?). :)

14. Go to the point and play slaps.

15. Laugh with your friends!!! (yeah... as you can see, laughing is an important part of staying un-stressed!)

Makes you think....

Rich Young Ruler

(vs. 1)

poverty

is so hard to see

when it’s only on your tv and twenty miles across town

where we’re all living so good

that we moved out of Jesus’ neighborhood

where he’s hungry and not feeling so good

from going through our trash

he says, more than just your cash and coin

i want your time, i want your voice

i want the things you just can’t give me

(vs. 2)

so what must we do

here in the west we want to follow you

we speak the language and we keep all the rules

even a few we made up

come on and follow me

but sell your house, sell your suv

sell your stocks, sell your security

and give it to the poor

what is this, hey what’s the deal

i don’t sleep around and i don’t steal

i want the things you just can’t give me

(bridge)

because what you do to the least of these

my brother’s, you have done it to me

because i want the things you just can’t give me

Take Note:

This is just a little note to those who may actually pay attention to my blog. As you may have noticed, I was bored so I changed the colour. However, when I did that I lost all the blogs of my friends on the sidebar. So, if you would like yours to be put back on, please let me know! I'd love to keep track of your blogs, which is why I put them there... so I can easily click and see if there's anything new. So, let me know!

Best Birthday EVER!!

I know this is a little bit late. My birthday was actually November 13th(those of you who didn't know, take note for next year... haha jk). However, due to computer difficulties, everything has been made a bit more difficult, including blogging. Anyway, enough of that and on with the story...

So, little did i know that I had no longer gotten to Saskatchewan, but my mom was already plotting a birthday surprise! I had no idea.... I hoped for a card and a relaxed evening with my friends. Little did I know, as I was preparing a few goodies for a couple hours during open dorm, what was going on in The Well!

My mom had sent money and cards and stuff to Amanda who then got my roommates involved. So as I was going around inviting my friends to a quiet evening... they were going around plotting against me. I could mention the many lies: Chantals VERY long walk by her melancholy self (really a trip to Moose Jaw for supplies in which Jeff's car broke down making them hours late!); Mel not being able to go to the airport with Amanda to pick up her friend(a ploy to get me out of the way while they set things up); or the biggest lie of all: Chantal going to a little get-together for for worship team in The Well, which she really didn't want to go to but had no choice and needed help carrying food over to(the part where they get me where they want me and then shout "Surprise" and then I cry when I find out that my parents were behind it!)

I can't possibly include every awesome detail, or enough pictures to give you the proper idea of how great it was! But I'm pretty sure it was my best birthday party ever!! Thank you to my parents for getting it all started! (It meant more than you'll ever know to me!) And thank you to my friends here, especially Amanda, Chantal, Jacquie and Ann, who pulled it off amazingly! I had absolutely no idea and it meant the world to me. Thank you to the rest of my friends here that showed up! I love you all!!

Oh! And I'm now anxiously awaiting my present! A Brian Reagan DVD and CD! How amazing is that?!!! Thank you all!! We will all enjoy them together I'm sure! (Or maybe you'll just get sick of me quoting them! haha)

Seeking God

O God, teach me to seek You, and reveal Yourself to me when I seek You,

For I cannot seek You unless You first teach me,

nor find You unless You first reveal Yourself to me.

Let me seek You in longing, and long for You in seeking.

Let me find You in love, and love You in finding.

- Ambrose of Milan, 339-397

Long Live the Bean?

So, I got to thinking the other day about my future in life. I'm sure you know how it is... You get to November, everything is due at the same time and discouragement sets in. Questions start to pop up in your head. Questions like: What is my goal in life? What am I going to do when I'm done school? Where is this taking me? Why on earth do I work at a place that is spanish for "long live the bean"?!(Viva Bica) and sometimes Will I be the one "keeping the bean alive" for the rest of my life?? Some days it feels like that.... Like today when I dropped a bottle of cranberry juice on the floor and it shattered. Or the time I almost charged a guy $33.95 for his chips and pop! Or the time I took some guy's money and wondered why he wasn't leaving until he asked me when he was going to get the chocolate milk he paid for!!

So, my questions are still not answered. I don't know what I will become in life or where my schooling will take me. But this one thing I do know.... at least I have moved beyond my longing to spend the rest of my life going door to door selling chocolate bars.