Fragmented Journal Entry....

I have absolutely nothing to offer and I am nothing without Christ.

I am a selfish person, scared to look beyond me; scared what God might ask me to do for others...

I don't read my bible enough because I'm scared of failure... I don't think I can do it well... yet in not trying, I'm failing anyway....

I want to be broken and to live solely for Christ, but I'm scared He might ask too much of me.. more than I can give...

I long to be genuine... but I'm scared what others might think of me....

I long to surrender fully to God, but I'm afraid of losing control....

I desire the TRUE joy that is only to be had in making Jesus the center of my life! ....but I'm afraid of losing the happiness I already have...

I want to let God change me into the person He wants me to be, but I'm scared of losing who I am now....

Wow. I am full of ridiculous fears. Where is my faith?

Isaiah 41:10 - So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous hand...

One Would Think....

Here is a little ode to my name change. I just changed it cause I got bored with the old one... and this one amuses me! By the way, in case of future confusion, the "one" who's thoughts are posted on this blog in the future is me(Janet).... haha! Just in case you got it in your hear that it actually meant the generic "one" :P

• One would think that if we(girls) think paint(nail polish) is attractive on our nails, we wouldn't think it messy and unattractive when on our clothes or slopped on our hands and arms.


• One would think that if pineapple and oranges and honeydew melon are gross in a chef salad, so are apples. (directed at my mom and Amy!:P)


• One would think that if we enjoy a lemon or an orange on our glass of water, we might like other fruits there... like pomegranates... or maybe a chunk of steak?


• One would think that, since clearly we Canadians need more exercise, we would put more stairs in our airports instead of having our stairs and pathways move for us.


• One would think...ok, I don't feel like thinking of more... I'm done for now....